I sometimes wish I could film my life so maybe you could understand just how alone I am living up here in New York… How burnt out I am from the constant long hours, no sleep, no food, and stress. My life is work and the rabbits all day, every day.
You seem to think life is just a walk in the park… You never have a problem with other colleagues— you get to do lots of fun things, without any pressure put on you or people making you feel like you should be questioning yourself constantly. You don’t have to worry that you will loose your job, or be talked about behind your back.
I am extremely jaded of my life currently, nothing shimmers like it used to— no one makes me feel alive and awakened like I did before, including you. You are a thorn in my side, that makes me bleed when I try to walk away.
How can you possibly fix what’s broken, when you don’t seem to want to change anything about the process. You are missing the most basic element of this entire situation— my will to stick through it. You don’t do things to bring me joy, or to boost my spirits— you only do things that bring me down. And you make my life a harder life to live day to day.
I have enough responsibilities right now, and the last thing I need is this chore of a relationship getting in my way.
If you can’t make things easier for me, and you can’t find ways to bring me happiness instead of arguing with me constantly then move along. I don’t have time to waste any longer.